JUST DO IT // october 2017's lesoon
First of all... how in the h-e-double hockey sticks is it already November? This year has flown by and only seems to get faster and faster. It blows my mind how fast life moves. Like, they always tell you growing up that life goes by fast while you're sitting there feeling like it couldn't go by fast enough... but now I am only 20 years old and I need life to slow the hell down! Yes, I went there. *gasp*
Anyways, if you've followed me you know that at the end of every month I look back at that month and think of something I struggled with... something that taught me a lesson... and then come up with a word or small saying that will help me remember that and hopefully help me grow and become better. This month was...
As I have talked about before, I struggle from social anxiety. I get those nervous butterflies for just about anything, and I have let it prevent me from too many amazing experiences. At the beginning of this month I had the opportunity to interview for a job. A good-paying, full-time, legit adult job (where I would have to wear business casual). This was a huge deal to me. I had pretty much accepted that I would be working at a burger joint making minimum wage, regardless of my talent and potential. I was so nervous for this interview. More nervous than I was before I did musicals and would get up on stage. I was so, so, so nervous. I almost told myself I wasn't going to go to the interview. However, the night before, right before I went to bed, I saw a picture on Instagram of a dude in a Nike shirt with their slogan, "Just do it." And I decided right then, that I was just going to do it. Well, I've had the job now for a few weeks and I am loving it so much. I can totally see why everything didn't work out - it was so this amazing opportunity could work out - and I am so glad I just did it. It's that initial, first step that is the hardest to make.
Another thing that was hard at first, but has been so great for me, has been several photoshoots I have done this month. If you follow me on Instagram (if you don't, you should, lol awkward) you'll know that I have done a whole bunch of Halloween-inspired photoshoots this month. To do these I needed some costumes... some make-up... and some models. Asking people for help with things is a huge no-no, according to the little voice in my head that I have given the name, "anxiety." The thing about anxiety, is that he only shows up when it comes to things that are important to me. He only shows up when I have something coming up that means a lot to me and that I want to go well. Anxiety sometimes sounds mean, but it's all in the way I perceive what he's telling me. He's really blunt. He tells me some people won't my photos. He tells me my interview won't go well. But he also tells me that my photography is amazing. He tells me that I'll get the job. And all of these statements could become true. So, I just had to tell myself, "Just do it," and I did these photoshoots, which ended up turning out so great and I made several new friends (who are all so talented) because of this.
I guess what I am trying to say is, "Just do it..." because it is always worth it. Use your anxiety as motivation to do things, rather than an excuse to not do things. Use the energy that your anxiety is to get things done. That is what anxiety is, it's energy. View your anxiety as a blessing rather than a curse.
Happy November, everyone. Get out there, be you, and just do it.
Xoxo, Kelvin "McKay' Findlay
Anyways, if you've followed me you know that at the end of every month I look back at that month and think of something I struggled with... something that taught me a lesson... and then come up with a word or small saying that will help me remember that and hopefully help me grow and become better. This month was...
"Just do it."
As I have talked about before, I struggle from social anxiety. I get those nervous butterflies for just about anything, and I have let it prevent me from too many amazing experiences. At the beginning of this month I had the opportunity to interview for a job. A good-paying, full-time, legit adult job (where I would have to wear business casual). This was a huge deal to me. I had pretty much accepted that I would be working at a burger joint making minimum wage, regardless of my talent and potential. I was so nervous for this interview. More nervous than I was before I did musicals and would get up on stage. I was so, so, so nervous. I almost told myself I wasn't going to go to the interview. However, the night before, right before I went to bed, I saw a picture on Instagram of a dude in a Nike shirt with their slogan, "Just do it." And I decided right then, that I was just going to do it. Well, I've had the job now for a few weeks and I am loving it so much. I can totally see why everything didn't work out - it was so this amazing opportunity could work out - and I am so glad I just did it. It's that initial, first step that is the hardest to make.
Another thing that was hard at first, but has been so great for me, has been several photoshoots I have done this month. If you follow me on Instagram (if you don't, you should, lol awkward) you'll know that I have done a whole bunch of Halloween-inspired photoshoots this month. To do these I needed some costumes... some make-up... and some models. Asking people for help with things is a huge no-no, according to the little voice in my head that I have given the name, "anxiety." The thing about anxiety, is that he only shows up when it comes to things that are important to me. He only shows up when I have something coming up that means a lot to me and that I want to go well. Anxiety sometimes sounds mean, but it's all in the way I perceive what he's telling me. He's really blunt. He tells me some people won't my photos. He tells me my interview won't go well. But he also tells me that my photography is amazing. He tells me that I'll get the job. And all of these statements could become true. So, I just had to tell myself, "Just do it," and I did these photoshoots, which ended up turning out so great and I made several new friends (who are all so talented) because of this.
I guess what I am trying to say is, "Just do it..." because it is always worth it. Use your anxiety as motivation to do things, rather than an excuse to not do things. Use the energy that your anxiety is to get things done. That is what anxiety is, it's energy. View your anxiety as a blessing rather than a curse.
Happy November, everyone. Get out there, be you, and just do it.
Xoxo, Kelvin "McKay' Findlay
